Psiloflora

makes sure that everything is ok with you. Checks also they day after if everything is ok, just wonderful. Here my trip experience: I’m a middle-aged women w/o any prior trip experience with mind altering substances. So here is why I wanted to do it: I studied with my Buddhist Group during the last year the first complete translation of the Bardo Thodhol (tibetan book of the death). It includes one of the most detailed and compelling descriptions of the after-death state. Just fantastic…but I thought I can only exerience what is described there during my own dying. But no, there is another book which I just found and read recently: Timothy Leary, The Psychedelic Experience: A Manual Based on the Tibetan Book of the Dead, in which he describes how to use the psychedelic mind-expansion for an after death experience according to the stages described in the Bardo Thodol. So far so good…I decided to do it with Marcel, entered the room with my meditation cushion and blanket because I assumed from Leary’s book that you do this in meditation posture. Marcel advised it would be better to the trip lying on a bed and fortunately I listend to him; I can’t imagine how one can do this in a sitting manner… Then…the trip level…of course Leary’s experience is with a level 5 trip, so I asked Marcel to prepare for a level 5 trip despite it is not recommended for unexperienced trippers. Marcel proposed to split the portion in two, so that I start with a lower level portion and if he and I think I can handle a higher level then to drink the second half of the portion within the first 30min. Actually I got a little afraid and asked him beforehand to reduce the level to 3-4, still with splitting the portion. And luckily we did it like that, because when the level 2-3 kicked in, I had a lot of nausea and if I had taken the remaining portion, I’m sure I would have had to vomit. The nausea stayed almost during the whole trip and was quite well handeld by Marcel with aromatherapy and reminding me to relax. I remember Marcel asked me as agreed questions to check my trip level, so that I could have taken the second half, but I really found it hard to articulate, words just slipped away so I just said no to everyhing he asked. The peak was quite intense and dense, I almost can’t recall it, it had something to do that I waited for the Dharmakaya clear light to appear, but it didn’t, at least not the way I had imagined/expected it would be. After realizing that I said to me: ok, not as expected, but neverthess I can enjoy it, it is all my own mind and then I relaxed even further, stopped with my wish to controll everything, even a psychedelic trip, and kind of enjoyed the colorful spirals, dragons, geometric forms., etc. Interestingly I had no emotions during the trip, it was like a peaceful, but very colorful state…I did not want to listen to any music, instead we (poor Marcel :)) listened to my “guided meditation playlist” over and over again… After the trip Marcel was so kind to leave healthy nuts and berries behind and he clearly pointed out the necessity to restore the body’s nutrition level after a trip. I had then his nuts and berries cocktail 2h after he left and it was delicious. The morning after (I did the trip in a hotel room near Amsterdam) I started crying and crying and crying without any reason. When Marcel was checking on me then the evening after I mentioned this to him and he assumed that this might have been caused by trauma release. I guess he is right, I don’t know which trauma, but my heart feels more open. Would do it and might do it again in future with Marcel!

the now at the same time. It seemed that everything had to be enlarged so that it could process itself and disappear from the system. The next level was the sentence question on who I am. This was very confusing, shifting my consciousness from dimenties to dimenties. This was also where ‘dark’ influences came in that probably wanted to stop it. Even Marcel was used for this. Sorry Marcel maybe it’s because of my background that it went this way. Or maybe it’s because of films that got stuck in the subconscious. In the end the ikje came loose from duality and ended up in spheres as unfounded where there is no word to mention. Absolute nothing and everything at the same time if I have to give it a reference. I had the feeling that from here you can discover even deeper layers and wisdom. I noticed that only concentration and other influences threw a spanner in the works. All in all, almost a week on. Live everything in a slow motion and understand everything that happens from a wholeness consciousness with little time awareness. work went well for me as well. Live in the moment and get situations when I think of something. Tips I can give you: Make sure your intention is clear beforehand. Environment, setting is also important. Music and smells etc.. These are factors that can disrupt the trip if you are very deep. At least that was my experience.

be effective for my problem, because I had already tried everything. I never stripped, and it was a very special experience, no one could describe it with common words, and no one will understand who didn’t experience it. The start of the trip was very pleasant, because Marcel created a very nice atmosphere, with smells, colors and music, it couldn’t have been better. During the trip I got all the answers to my questions, it sounds unrealistic, but it’s true, I got full insight into my problem, at that moment I knew what exactly caused my stress, that was a deep analysis in my own, remembered my childhood times, and what is very unique, those answers I got, were stored in my subconscious, while seeing all those figures and patterns around me, I felt that my subconscious is being programmed again (restart exactly). And Marcel has felt exactly what I feel, and has directed my own thoughts to the necessary side, and I can say with all certainty that I am 80% cured, it’s highly recommended, and I want to thank you Marcel is still for everything, you did what seemed impossible to me before!

started the ceremony (just like I did with alchohol and also worked) only smoking didn’t work out and put out my last cigarette the morning before we started. The ceremony is so incredibly powerful that I believe you can do almost anything you want, the most important thing is that you have to respect it, believe and love it, so you won’t disappoint it and get rid of your addictions. I will continue to give updates and honestly say how everything is going to go and if someone still reads and has questions you can always ask something. The trip itself was even better than the previous one, the tea marcel makes is delicious and gives incredible hallucinations and a nice feeling, he has a lot of experience and knows how to make you feel at ease. Next ceremony I’m going to plan again and see how far this can take me and other goals we can achieve together! Keep you guys updated!

and contacted Marcel. Marcel reacted quickly and I agreed to meet him for a walk and talk. Marcel was straightforward and asked me direct questions about why I wanted this, what I wanted to get out of it etc. This gave me reason to think further about this ceremony. He told about the possibilities and that in a ceremony you can look at things you want to change in your life. In the conversation it became clear that Marcel is skilled and also has a lot of experience. All the things you want if you want to do this. In the weeks before the ceremony Marcel gave me focus with tips on nutrition and mind set. Your view on yourself and the preparation are important so you can get the most out of your ceremony. On the day of the ceremony I was slightly tense; you don’t know how it goes, what it does to you etc. Marcel explained what I could expect and we talked about how it feels and what his role is. His calm made me feel at ease. I’ve felt comfortable, safe and comfortable at every moment in the whole process. This is because of how Marcel is and what he does. Eventually when you have drunk the truffle tea you will relax and retreat into your own world and your trip has begun. During the trip Marcel was my point of contact to measure my experiences, but also my guide to bring what I wanted to ‘view’ into focus. I can’t help but say and write that this has been a crazy experience that I can give everyone. Thanks to Marcel’s knowledge, tranquillity and experience.

for life subconsciously flowed away and the depression increased in strength. I am now past the center of gravity of this episode, where therapy has helped alleviate the symptoms. What helped was the connection with my therapist, insight, and the new coping strategies I learned. But it didn’t completely get to the heart of the problem for me, namely the love of life. Where (psycho)therapy works on the level of ratio, psychedelic therapy works on the level of your soul. With this insight I started looking for something that could help me a step further, and that’s how I ended up with Marcel. I’ve been reading up on psilocybin as a medication for the treatment of depression. Marcel uses a holistic approach, through healthy food, the right supplements and sufficient exercise, the best results are achieved during the trip. And this holistic approach worked well for me, eating healthier food in combination with the supplements already gave me a more vital feeling prior to the trip. During my psychotherapy I never paid attention to this, but it is really effective. The approach of the trip was trip level 5, but in the end it became a trip level 3-4. Every body reacts differently to psilocybin and I have learned that my body needs a slightly higher dose to reach level 5. However, this did not detract from the trip, I have gained some nice insights from the process. It is literally a journey, first it slowly became more and more difficult to formulate thoughts, then it became more and more difficult to come to words and finally I came into contact with my unconscious. The genius is that your subconscious knows where your difficulties and wounds are, what needs attention and where the healing should take place. My subconscious brought me into contact with myself as a very small child, at a time when I was not yet saddled with thoughts, the feeling of having to, condemnation and punishment. As a very small me I was able to experience feelings of sorrow, relief, joy, wonder in a pure form, without words, without thoughts, without judgments. I couldn’t really remember that little me, that feels like life ago. The little me was happy and happy, outside, in nature, on the beach, in the playground, playing with his friends and sister. This little boy loved life, could also be sad, but could also be comforted, his feelings were adaptive and not stuck like in my depressions. This showed me a path that I now understand on a feeling level, a bliss in habituality, more being outside, more playing. A question I have been asking since the trip for the first time in my life: what does the tiny little me feel like? I don’t know exactly yet, but I’m going to pay a lot of attention to this in the time to come! The contact with Marcel before and after the trip was very pleasant. I also found Marcel to be very knowledgeable as a trip coach. I felt safe during the trip, I was extremely vulnerable and this was taken care of by Marcel in soft hands. This unconditional positive approach was pleasant, it gave me the space to really turn inside out. Marcel assisted me when things got difficult for me during the trip and took good care of me. I am glad that we were able to make this trip together, thank you Marcel!

are already inside you. It comes out so clearly. And then you’re gonna know it but you’re also gonna feel it… That’s a really big difference. Wow! Wow! Marcel assisted me during this process. He does this very skilfully. It adapts to what I needed at that moment. He has the necessary knowledge. What made me feel confident in the situation and actually didn’t get anxious and was able to continue my process. One day later I notice revelation on revelation. The things I knew have suddenly landed. How nice! I’m really curious where this is going to take me!

I saw why I made bad choices because of old pain and patterns. Life is so much better now than it was before. I can’t thank Marcel enough for this. You showed me what I needed to see. Thank you so much!

regulate them.
It is a holistic, individual approach. Personally I found it very pleasant that the contact was 1 to 1 and at my home. I noticed that I was quickly distracted at group ceremonies. One time alone was pleasant.
Although there is a lot possible with trip therapy and I wouldn’t shy away from a group ceremony the next time. The room in Schiedam looks very attractive. Marcel’s presence is pleasant and I haven’t felt unsafe for a moment. This ensured that I had a pleasant quiet trip. Together with Marcel decided to do a high dose of truffles with passion flower; psiloflora.
From the outside little seemed to happen but on the inside it was an infinite space where I have been in many places. Once in a while Marcel guided me back where I wanted to focus my attention. He also made me think, even after the trip. A good conversation with me just wasn’t in it. I didn’t get what was happening in my brain translated into words.
My trip touched beautiful places in myself but I certainly also enjoyed the colours, visuals and connections of the universe. The smells (even though they were limited due to the presence of a cat. Whatever Marcel had picked out nicely) were a nice addition to the trip. One of which he can be proud and, as far as I know, he is the only one offering.
Also the colours and the music were well chosen. After the trip there was also contact to find out how I experienced it and how I am doing. Triptherapy with Marcel is absolutely recommended. Psychedelics show again what you are made of and how magical you, the world and the universe are.

time to learn something about myself and my future. Marcel introduced himself and briefly explained what was about to happen. He asked how I felt and went over the answers I had filled in online in preparation for this day. I asked how ‘legal’ this was, especially for when things would go wrong. He said he had been doing this for 5 years and it was perfectly legal. In the Netherlands you are allowed to use all kinds of drugs, only you are not allowed to sell or own them all. Magic truffles can be sold, however, and this was what I was here for. Moreover, nothing had ever happened during the 5 years that he practiced this profession. That reassured me because I had to admit that I was a bit nervous after all. I asked him if I couldn’t get a higher dose because there are different levels. I wanted to silence that damn ego of mine and experience how it would feel not to be my ‘imaginary self’ anymore but my ‘real’ self. Since I had never taken truffles before, he advised against this and we went for the level below which you hallucinate and experience the world in a totally different way but still remain your imaginary self. Marcel had brought a tea with the truffles containing the active ingredient Psilocybin mixed with some herbs, vitamins and extra minerals. It tasted good. We connected his phone to the Bluetooth speaker in the room and chose which style of music I would listen to. He also said that he would be there for me during the session and that if I found him threatening I could ask him to sit down a bit further. While we were doing this I felt it coming up and he made me smell mint. I lay down on my bed. Marcel installed another lamp that generated fluorescent colors that were constantly changing. He was going to fill the room with all kinds of smells during the trip as well because they could arouse certain feelings or images. I closed my eyes and left on my inner journey. The whole session I had a very familiar feeling. I was still myself and was able to control what happened, Marcel had told me that in advance and it turned out to be true. I was in a colorful fluo 3D universe (by the lamp?) when I closed my eyes, where everything was possible. I had the feeling that I was dreaming but still awake. When I opened them or when the music stopped it felt like I was waking up again and again. I consciously kept them sometimes because I didn’t want this to ever stop. I could feel sad/anxious and happy, I could smell like never before. I saw incredible things, things that belong on a canvas, real works of art. I had the feeling that I wanted to know what life on earth meant but that I wasn’t allowed to know and certainly wasn’t allowed to take it with me to the ‘real’ world. In the beginning I was completely in it as if I was experiencing it myself. Later I watched more from a distance what was happening. It was a blissful feeling. Sometimes the music stopped for a moment and Marcel tried to ask me questions about the things I wanted to know during my trip. However, I noticed that I was having trouble getting out of my words and struggling with the earthly things. I wasn’t on earth and now I didn’t want to occupy myself with banal earthly things like a job or my future . At one point I saw my brother and mother crying and felt their grief and tried to take it away. It was as if I could take away their sad energy from a distance. It felt as if I had been here a million times, in this world I experienced with my eyes closed, as if I went there every night but now could remember it a little better. Although during my trip I was already aware that I wouldn’t be able to remember everything or even ‘had to'(?) forget everything. At one point I experienced a very blissful feeling when I said that I was going to draw all this and show it to the people in my real world. And a little later I said to myself that I wasn’t ‘allowed’ to share it anyway. I saw a kind of wolf/indian with 3 or 4 faces in one. It was hard for me to think of my wife and children, they were too earthly. I was not in the earthly world. I couldn’t think of a job either, or was drawing this unearthly world what I had to do? Discover the artist within myself and share it with the earthly world? I could use all my senses and evoke all the feelings I wanted. I felt like everything was okay, everything I did. That I could make my own laws and I didn’t have to participate in that world with all its rules that make no sense and only serve to serve others or make them rich. Time did not exist, it felt as if I had already traveled for days, but when I was early to the real time only 2.5 hours had passed and it also felt as long but in earthly terms (I know !?!?!?) I can hardly describe with words what I experienced because everything is so different than on earth, literally as the first sentence of the Tao describes it so beautifully: “The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao”. Everything I try to describe comes a long way from what I have experienced. Your brain is literally tripping too. During a trip, the Psilocybin stops your default mode network (DMN) in your brain. This part of your brain can think about the past and future, and is therefore responsible for your ego because who are you?; The person you were in the past and what you are going to do in the future, right? Because this part of your brain becomes less active, other parts of your brain communicate with each other, so you experience reality completely differently and new brain connections are made. It has been discovered on brain scans that people who have meditated all their lives can make this DMN part of the brain inactive. How wonderful it must be to be a Buddhist monk I also understand that if you have a depression, you can let go because you feel/see different things, get different perspectives and experience everything differently as a result. I also have more respect for my body, I really feel what I eat now and that it is good/healthy or not. I also wanted to get rid of my sugar addiction because Psilocybin could also cure addictions. I notice that at the moment it is easier to leave the refined sugars for what they are. I now ‘feel’ more with my whole body that it is not healthy for me. I heard Marcel cleaning up and he started talking to me. We discussed what I had been through and he told me some more things he had experienced during his trips. We said goodbye the way we had to, by a firm hug. He advised me not to go outside yet and if I did it anyway pay attention because sometimes you could concentrate too hard on one thing and wouldn’t realize the rest. I also had to let him know later that night how I was doing. Whatever I did, I had a severe headache. I think this was because I hadn’t been lying on my own pillow during the 5 hour session and had gotten a headache more often. Luckily I was allowed to take paracetamol, only these were still in my car. For my safety I decided not to take it. So I was clear and not so off the planet that I didn’t know what I was doing after the session. The hours after the session I still wasn’t ‘back to normal’. I lived a little slower, very consciously and completely in the now. When I ate fruit, I felt the saliva piling up in my mouth, I was aware of everything. The papayas, mangoes, coconut and pineapple tasted delicious, it was as if I ate them for the first time. I could look at my own hands for minutes, I saw that my hands seemed smaller than I had always thought and they were not as strong as they used to be. When I looked in the mirror I saw that I was redder and I saw veins on my forehead (due to a raised blood pressure?). I looked at my mobile phone and experienced the screen differently because the light and the letters behaved ‘differently’. Or had this always been the case and had I never really looked? I could see many more details and concentrate on something for a long time, like a child who gets something new and gets totally absorbed in it. I was more aware of what I heard and smelled. (At the moment, 2 days after the session, it’s still like this but unfortunately it’s a lot less anyway). For example, I heard a wicker rack standing in the room crackling by itself every now and then and I was very aware of the ventilation in the bathroom. I also noticed, for example, that the background behind your WhatsApp messages moves when you move your mobile phone, I had never noticed that before. I could also keep looking at the ‘online’ icon under a person’s name in WhatsApp as if that was the only thing that existed on earth.   I didn’t get clear answers during my session but I feel excellent and confident. It really feels like ‘do what you really want to do without caring what others think’. I know it sounds cliché but now you also feel that because you have experienced it differently. I’m also more empathetic and can empathize better with others. I feel more. I see more. I live more in the now. I have more respect for the planet and I feel very connected to the universe. It’s as if you realize that what we humans make of it is just something tiny in this universe. The universe doesn’t need us, so you decide if you want humanity to continue to exist and if we should move to Mars because it’s too hot here. You feel that there is much more than what we are allowed to experience as humans here and that there are totally different physical(?) laws than those we know as humans. Everything is energy and you experience that during a session at first hand. You feel that time is very relative and our life is just a small thing for the universe and actually means nothing, so you have everything under control and above all you don’t have to be afraid. What can happen, only things your own brain tells you. Later, when I looked at some notes I had written down in the past about everything I still wanted to experience and what I still wanted to change about myself, I saw a lot of things that had to do with my ego. It made me laugh a lot. 6 hours after one drink I saw the world differently than before. Who or what do I want to be? I’m just who I am and I just do what I want. I don’t have to worry about what others think of me, and I certainly don’t have to put it down. I have to do things because I like them, not because I’m ‘better’ than before or than others. I do things because I feel them for myself at that moment.   Finally If you live in the NOW, you are not making lists, you are doing what you feel good about at that moment. Living in the NOW is very conscious living. I consciously chose to write this down and share my adventure because friends and family around me were worried about this session. I can assure you this session was something to remember forever. I also want to thank my wife for giving me this and for letting me take a break from my family to throw myself into this adventure. There is always the fear of the unknown, but I am convinced that this unknown will give me many more instructive adventures. And that’s the best thing there is, being able to learn something new every day.   “We’re all energetic (spiritual) beings who have a human experience.” May the Tao be with you!

my head, ego and fears dissolved, I ended up fully in my own feelings. Because of this I had many realizations and breakthroughs, even many days after the trip. My brain has really had a reset and a lot of space has been created. Because of the good guidance of Marcel I had a super experience! Thank you, it has made my life a lot lighter and I feel more relaxed and happy 🙂

I have tried (and continue to try) to express the imagination of deep cosmic connectedness. In addition, a youth trauma plays a role as a means of pressure to depict (and experience) a deeper origin of consciousness and reality. Questions of meaning such as traumatic experiences have always made me curious about means of expanding my consciousness. The use of weed also helps me to better express my imaginations. The trip I just take a throw and say that 80 percent of the trip can’t be grasped. That leaves me 20 percent to describe. Immediately after the trip I wrote down a thread of impressions in keywords. My trip experience follows the music playlist of Marcel’s mobile phone, his scent diffusers and his rotating light/color nozzle. Here’s my report in rough terms. Then I make an attempt to formulate what I have learned from it or become wiser. A continuous pulsing of beautifully coloured and undulating form fields that then swell up again and then diminish again. Fields filled with unfathomable figures and signs that continuously divide, merge, separate and then merge again etc. A rhythmic pumping and swirling of liquid velvet textures in brilliantly changing colour streams with orgasmic fountains of scarlet and ultraviolet. These alternating currents contract and ripen open. Then an infinite spine of reptiles emerges from a bottom of rows of teeth that fade away again. I see the dying dragon passing into the face of mercy. What a majesty in a procession of flared colours, a cosmic parade of forms groping for their birth. They yearn to be born. In palaces, princes and princesses are cast in gold and purple and then eaten and swallowed up in the eternal cycle of digestion. I see you womb, mother of healing, mother of primal mating in your sacred confirmation of purple. A short rest in the pulsating fields. Then a new unrest begins. On the big board game satyr and clowns appear – Micky Mouse-like figures with mean grimaces. Then insects crawl into restless crevices and fish and snakes hurry away. The contours of the swaying pink carmine field change into a sharply increasing palette of shades of brown and dark green. Something new is looming. Once again everything is swallowed up by a large monster that then dissolves again and transforms into new formations of gracious shapes. The cycle keeps repeating itself in this way: golden children are transformed into beasts, swallowed and digested etc. Conclusion I interpret the trip I made as an encounter with the history of my own body that is, of course, a body like any living being. Presumably the trip offers the possibility to unlock the oldest part of the brain (the reptile brain). My digestion and spine formed the framework through which evolution unfolded to me filmically (in partial visions). I have witnessed the horrible beast of which I am and am part. But I have experienced in the experience of this trip that this enormous beast (evolution) is at the same time the deepest grace and possibility for further growth. The day after the trip I decided to take a walk through Haarlem. I was not planning to visit Teylersmuseum. Yet I walked there spontaneously. Before I realized it, I stood eye and eye with essentials from the trip: fossils, skeletons, shells etc. I was particularly touched by the so-called ammonite. Unconsciously I draw and paint this form all my life. How happy I am my new ammonite consciousness. A few days after the trip I made a painting (crucifixion 26) in which I incorporated my organic adventure. You can find it on my account on Instagram. Gus Ambrose Edit by triptherapy The artwork belonging to the trip is shown below. By the way, are you curious what other art Gijs Ambrosius makes? Then click on a link of your choice: Website of artist Gijs AmbrosiusInstagram by artist Gijs Ambrosius

him inquiring about trip sitting for my depression, and kept in touch with suggestions about supplements to use before tripping etc. We had tentatively figured out a date for the trip as well, and he had been super patient with my fears and concerns about doing it. Except for one thing – even though he tried to encourage me, the day before my trip, I had a major panic attack about what I was doing, cancelled my appointment and simply left town. He still didn’t get mad at me, or annoyed, or complain that I wasted a day for him or that he might have lost money etc. He followed up within a week or more to ask how I was doing. I was still contemplating what to do (as my depression has really been long running at this point) and then decided again to try it, preparing for all the things that could go wrong in my head. Anyway, this time I made an appointment with him again – and managed to keep it in spite of my panic. He ended up being a super sweet and patient guy, and tried to settle my fears. I felt totally safe and comfortable, and it ended up being a really fun trip and a great first experience. His tea was pretty good and just relaxed me ( which is pretty much what I needed ). My anxiety has dropped by over half ever since that trip, so seems like truffles definitely helps with calming you down. My depression symptoms are still around, which is why I decided to do a second trip within a week, but for whatever reason that trip didn’t go as well for me. Marcel had asked me to wait for a couple weeks himself. I also didn’t use his tea for this one – just the truffles. I had spoken to other trip sitters, who said the gap didn’t matter so much , because of which I proceeded. I have just learned that many users can have a dip in mood for a week or two after the use of psychedelics, and I have a feeling that must have been the case with me as well. So I think I should have waited until I was in a better frame of mind. My only issue was that I wish he had been a bit more aware that some people might feel a dip in mood after a trip and there are supplements that can help with that. But I think perhaps no one trips as close together, so maybe it doesn’t affect others as much. However, he respected my boundaries even while I was having not as good a trip. His emergency sugar drink helped end it sooner. He also drove me back home so I wasn’t wandering around in public transport feeling not so great. I felt totally safe during my trips and knew he could be relied upon. So, I pretty much chose to trip with Marcel because he was patient, understanding and a caring and trustworthy person – he handled the situation well even when I went off the rails a bit. That really reassured me and mattered a lot to me. Plus, I truly appreciated that he didn’t judge me for my paranoia and understood my hesitations about being around a male trip sitter after my traumatic experience. He tried to, in his own way I think, make me a bit more comfortable around strange men again and I do appreciate that. I only think that he should also focus on post-trip supplements as much as pre-trip ones ! But I would trip with him again, and definitely use his tea over just plain truffles !

total experience. I wanted the full entheogenic, obliteration of ego, meeting god kind of experience. He created a concoction that sent me into another dimension. 70 mg of psilocybin — and boy did it work. It’s hard to describe even now what happened in that hotel room, but I’m glad Marcel was there because when I came to he was there to make sure I found my grounding and didn’t start wandering the streets of Amsterdam on my own (Which I almost did). I’m an atheist, but grew up very religious, this was the experience I’d been craving for a while since leaving my faith. It was the transcendence without the dogma. It was the numinous without the pulpit. In fact it was even beyond that… at one point I felt that I hadn’t just met god (I’m still an atheist but it’s the best word to describe what it felt like) but I became god. I was the universe, I became Vishnu the Hindu god of creation and Brahma at the same time. It was me who would open my eyes and a thousand years would pass and a Universe would be created and I’d close my eyes and it would all disappear. (And I know very little about the Hindu religion… but that is where my brain went). Needless to say it was certainly one of the 5 most meaningful experiences of my life… perhaps even the 1st (we’ll see how I feel when I have kids or get married). In short, it was incredible. It’s now been a good 3 weeks since my session and even now I listen to the classical music that started my journey and the music is more rich somehow, more full, more heavenly. In fact I’ve fallen asleep more than once to the same classical music at the early hours of the night sending me into a renewed sense of transcendence although not as powerful. I can’t wait to do it again — I can’t wait to introduce it to my girlfriend and many other of my friends. Marcel will certainly be seeing me again next time I’m in Amsterdam. Thanks for guiding me brotha and not letting me get into too much trouble.

I did, because my outlook on life and my general feeling improved so much through it. The anxiety I always felt, like a pressure in my chest and that sort of ‘fight or flight’ mode I was constantly in are gone and I can say I wake up feeling good every day. Of course it hasn’t made my problems disappear, but honestly, the abysmal decrease of my anxiety and deep sadness have made those problems much narrower than they felt, and I feel confident I will be much better, no matter what happens next. Marcel was really great, making sure I felt comfortable and helping in asking certain questions and trying to guide me through it when I wasn’t focused enough, as well as leaving me with good questions to ask myself each day. I’d really recommend this to anyone who’s thinking about it, as it has made a huge difference for me. If I had to resume the experience into one word, it would be ‘healing’, as I really felt like this healed me from the inside out, and it was also so magical and beautiful. So really, thank you, Marcel.

Circle of Power that made it even more special. It was demarcated with rocks and natural stones. In the center was a beautiful-looking rock crystal. After a nice tour on the domain of Arjan, and admiring his authentic Mongolian tent, and chatting together, it was time for the trip.   We first took our delicious MAO inhibitor with the taste of ambrosia and raspberries (NOT!), The drink was disgustingly bitter and I imagine licking a cactus would feel even more pleasant. But well, it is worth it!   We lay down in our sleeping bags while Arjan lit the fireplace (cozy!). I soon went into a trance that made me feel very comfortable and happy, although I didn’t go very deep. It felt more like a lucid dream.   After 2 hours Stendert woke me because it was time for the second shot of the Gods drink. We sat down in the Circle of Power and told each other’s experiences. As I looked at the crystal in the center of the circle, I saw it change from clear to milky white, pulsating like a beating heart, but much slower.   I said to Steven what I saw, and I expected a burst of laughter, and I saw he was ready for that, until he looked and shouted in amazement that he saw it too. We asked Arjan and Stendert if they saw it, but they answered coolly that they had not been drinking the Gods drink.   According to them, it was a sign that we should lie down again. Immediately I felt how the physical purification was started in the form of abdominal cramps. I struggled to squeeze my butt because I felt I was leaving every moment, and sure enough, with the speed of a rabbit on steroids, I was sucked into the other dimension.   To the music of karunesh, more specifically the song Moola Mantra, my journey started. I was drawn into a world very similar to ancient Egypt we know from movies and documentaries. Only what happened was a completely different story. In this dimension, worlds were created to the tones of music and Mantras.   More specifically, the Mantras that originated in that song. I also started singing along as if it was my job, and it went completely by itself. I followed the flow of the other Gods present and built entire landscapes. It was then that I realized that I myself was the creator of my own world, that I can create anything I want.   That I actually discovered God in myself and that there were no limits for me anymore. It was terribly scary to be pulled out of my body and into a dimension that I didn’t know I would ever return to, and the idea of ​​never seeing my family and friends again made me very sad. Yet I realized deep down that I was receiving a lesson here that would drastically change my life.   Also the realization that everything consists of sound and tones did not surprise me. It seemed as if I had always known that it was woven into my DNA. When I started to return from that dimension a bit and I floated between two worlds, I saw my guide Stendert standing next to me. He just said with his compassionate smile: “Now go inside yourself and take a good look around at the beautiful things you can see there.”   The moment he said that I disappeared in my body. What I saw made me so much pleasure and happiness: only love and purity, worlds in worlds, infinity. The realization that I am God of my own body, my inner God.   Of course, many more things happened that I can bring to my mind again while I played the matching music again, but they are guaranteed to surface more clearly later.   I did not sleep after the trip yet and try to write down everything I remember, but I now know from experience that after days, weeks and even months, memories of the trip can still arise. That was the trip itself in a nutshell, but the effect I feel afterwards is almost impossible to describe.   A feeling of intense happiness, unconditional love for everything and everyone, a serenity that I have not felt for a long time, and especially inner peace and tranquility. Apparently it is three times right, and I have now had the most beautiful and life-changing psychedelical experience.   A must for anyone who wants to discover himself and his inner world and wants to continue with an awareness of an eternally existent soul.   Ending with a bit of surreptitious advertising: let Stendert and Arjan guide you, because they make it a great experience .

your life suffer through insecurity and never reached your potential in this short life we have here? I realize this now so well wow literally wow what feels this good a new beginning, reborn. I don’t let myself be guided by what people think of me anymore and I say everything I think of something, or not… and people I tell you magical things are going to happen, you start creating your reality! Marcel knows what we need people really trust him and you’ll see. Love to you all and good luck with your journey I hope everyone will find what they need, just as I am experiencing now I grant everyone. Open your eyes and take the next step towards your own reality, love to all

nature setting . I was guided by Marcel on a mild 2-3 level trip and my intention for that trip was to spend time with myself and be there just for me. Beginning of my trip was very visual and my main focus was on a beautiful, psychedelic tree I was laying under. It was really an amazing tree! But Marcel was able to help me to direct my thoughts inwards. I felt safe and tasks care of. I felt like a little paper boat on calm waters and the trip sitter was making gentle waves next to me to guide me to my realisations. I was filled with gratefulness, love, relief and forgiveness for my own doings and those feelings are still present with me. The only thing I would change is better preparation from my side – I am more than sure that if I’d focused on meditation, setting specific intention and diet/supplements my experience would be even deeper. I would like to thank Triptherapie and Marcel for new perspectives, drinkable honey mushroom tea, your wisdom and the cucumber trick for nausea. I am certain that this experience was a first step towards my new, more aware and significant life and I highly recommend everyone to try mushrooms with Marcel . Can’t wait for next trip or a retreat!

development / coaching process and less of a spiritual affair. His personal stories and experiences have also helped me to better place the information from the ceremony. I have more energy and trust my intuition even more. And can put things into perspective better. To what extent is it difficult to indicate. I am happy with the fact that there are changes. The fact that Stendert is flexible is in space, so that the cermony could also be covered at our home was very nice for us. His presence felt very familiar and he is really working to make the process an added value for us. For me it was very good and well worth the money. So keep it up.

and be enriched! Namaste .