Psiloflora

I had just checked into my studio that I had booked through Booking when Marcel rang the doorbell. A few weeks earlier, when I had finished my last project, I had booked a truffle ceremony online and today was the day that this place was going to take place. I wanted to listen more to my subconscious and see if I could find some career advice there. After all, I had just turned 40 and decided this was a great time to learn something about myself and my future.
Marcel introduced himself and briefly explained what was about to happen. He asked how I felt and went over the answers I had filled in online in preparation for this day. I asked how ‘legal’ this was, especially for when things would go wrong. He said he had been doing this for 5 years and it was perfectly legal. In the Netherlands you are allowed to use all kinds of drugs, only you are not allowed to sell or own them all. Magic truffles can be sold, however, and this was what I was here for. Moreover, nothing had ever happened during the 5 years that he practiced this profession. That reassured me because I had to admit that I was a bit nervous after all. I asked him if I couldn’t get a higher dose because there are different levels. I wanted to silence that damn ego of mine and experience how it would feel not to be my ‘imaginary self’ anymore but my ‘real’ self. Since I had never taken truffles before, he advised against this and we went for the level below which you hallucinate and experience the world in a totally different way but still remain your imaginary self. Marcel had brought a tea with the truffles containing the active ingredient Psilocybin mixed with some herbs, vitamins and extra minerals. It tasted good. We connected his phone to the Bluetooth speaker in the room and chose which style of music I would listen to. He also said that he would be there for me during the session and that if I found him threatening I could ask him to sit down a bit further. While we were doing this I felt it coming up and he made me smell mint. I lay down on my bed. Marcel installed another lamp that generated fluorescent colors that were constantly changing. He was going to fill the room with all kinds of smells during the trip as well because they could arouse certain feelings or images. I closed my eyes and left on my inner journey.
The whole session I had a very familiar feeling. I was still myself and was able to control what happened, Marcel had told me that in advance and it turned out to be true. I was in a colorful fluo 3D universe (by the lamp?) when I closed my eyes, where everything was possible. I had the feeling that I was dreaming but still awake. When I opened them or when the music stopped it felt like I was waking up again and again. I consciously kept them sometimes because I didn’t want this to ever stop. I could feel sad/anxious and happy, I could smell like never before. I saw incredible things, things that belong on a canvas, real works of art. I had the feeling that I wanted to know what life on earth meant but that I wasn’t allowed to know and certainly wasn’t allowed to take it with me to the ‘real’ world. In the beginning I was completely in it as if I was experiencing it myself. Later I watched more from a distance what was happening. It was a blissful feeling. Sometimes the music stopped for a moment and Marcel tried to ask me questions about the things I wanted to know during my trip. However, I noticed that I was having trouble getting out of my words and struggling with the earthly things. I wasn’t on earth and now I didn’t want to occupy myself with banal earthly things like a job or my future .
At one point I saw my brother and mother crying and felt their grief and tried to take it away. It was as if I could take away their sad energy from a distance.
It felt as if I had been here a million times, in this world I experienced with my eyes closed, as if I went there every night but now could remember it a little better. Although during my trip I was already aware that I wouldn’t be able to remember everything or even ‘had to'(?) forget everything. At one point I experienced a very blissful feeling when I said that I was going to draw all this and show it to the people in my real world. And a little later I said to myself that I wasn’t ‘allowed’ to share it anyway. I saw a kind of wolf/indian with 3 or 4 faces in one. It was hard for me to think of my wife and children, they were too earthly. I was not in the earthly world. I couldn’t think of a job either, or was drawing this unearthly world what I had to do? Discover the artist within myself and share it with the earthly world?
I could use all my senses and evoke all the feelings I wanted. I felt like everything was okay, everything I did. That I could make my own laws and I didn’t have to participate in that world with all its rules that make no sense and only serve to serve others or make them rich.
Time did not exist, it felt as if I had already traveled for days, but when I was early to the real time only 2.5 hours had passed and it also felt as long but in earthly terms (I know !?!?!?) I can hardly describe with words what I experienced because everything is so different than on earth, literally as the first sentence of the Tao describes it so beautifully: “The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao”. Everything I try to describe comes a long way from what I have experienced. Your brain is literally tripping too. During a trip, the Psilocybin stops your default mode network (DMN) in your brain. This part of your brain can think about the past and future, and is therefore responsible for your ego because who are you?; The person you were in the past and what you are going to do in the future, right? Because this part of your brain becomes less active, other parts of your brain communicate with each other, so you experience reality completely differently and new brain connections are made. It has been discovered on brain scans that people who have meditated all their lives can make this DMN part of the brain inactive. How wonderful it must be to be a Buddhist monk
I also understand that if you have a depression, you can let go because you feel/see different things, get different perspectives and experience everything differently as a result. I also have more respect for my body, I really feel what I eat now and that it is good/healthy or not. I also wanted to get rid of my sugar addiction because Psilocybin could also cure addictions. I notice that at the moment it is easier to leave the refined sugars for what they are. I now ‘feel’ more with my whole body that it is not healthy for me.
I heard Marcel cleaning up and he started talking to me. We discussed what I had been through and he told me some more things he had experienced during his trips. We said goodbye the way we had to, by a firm hug. He advised me not to go outside yet and if I did it anyway pay attention because sometimes you could concentrate too hard on one thing and wouldn’t realize the rest. I also had to let him know later that night how I was doing. Whatever I did, I had a severe headache. I think this was because I hadn’t been lying on my own pillow during the 5 hour session and had gotten a headache more often. Luckily I was allowed to take paracetamol, only these were still in my car. For my safety I decided not to take it. So I was clear and not so off the planet that I didn’t know what I was doing after the session.
The hours after the session I still wasn’t ‘back to normal’. I lived a little slower, very consciously and completely in the now. When I ate fruit, I felt the saliva piling up in my mouth, I was aware of everything. The papayas, mangoes, coconut and pineapple tasted delicious, it was as if I ate them for the first time. I could look at my own hands for minutes, I saw that my hands seemed smaller than I had always thought and they were not as strong as they used to be. When I looked in the mirror I saw that I was redder and I saw veins on my forehead (due to a raised blood pressure?).
I looked at my mobile phone and experienced the screen differently because the light and the letters behaved ‘differently’. Or had this always been the case and had I never really looked? I could see many more details and concentrate on something for a long time, like a child who gets something new and gets totally absorbed in it. I was more aware of what I heard and smelled. (At the moment, 2 days after the session, it’s still like this but unfortunately it’s a lot less anyway). For example, I heard a wicker rack standing in the room crackling by itself every now and then and I was very aware of the ventilation in the bathroom. I also noticed, for example, that the background behind your WhatsApp messages moves when you move your mobile phone, I had never noticed that before. I could also keep looking at the ‘online’ icon under a person’s name in WhatsApp as if that was the only thing that existed on earth.
 
I didn’t get clear answers during my session but I feel excellent and confident. It really feels like ‘do what you really want to do without caring what others think’. I know it sounds cliché but now you also feel that because you have experienced it differently. I’m also more empathetic and can empathize better with others. I feel more. I see more. I live more in the now. I have more respect for the planet and I feel very connected to the universe. It’s as if you realize that what we humans make of it is just something tiny in this universe. The universe doesn’t need us, so you decide if you want humanity to continue to exist and if we should move to Mars because it’s too hot here. You feel that there is much more than what we are allowed to experience as humans here and that there are totally different physical(?) laws than those we know as humans. Everything is energy and you experience that during a session at first hand. You feel that time is very relative and our life is just a small thing for the universe and actually means nothing, so you have everything under control and above all you don’t have to be afraid. What can happen, only things your own brain tells you.
Later, when I looked at some notes I had written down in the past about everything I still wanted to experience and what I still wanted to change about myself, I saw a lot of things that had to do with my ego. It made me laugh a lot. 6 hours after one drink I saw the world differently than before. Who or what do I want to be? I’m just who I am and I just do what I want. I don’t have to worry about what others think of me, and I certainly don’t have to put it down. I have to do things because I like them, not because I’m ‘better’ than before or than others. I do things because I feel them for myself at that moment.
 
Finally
If you live in the NOW, you are not making lists, you are doing what you feel good about at that moment. Living in the NOW is very conscious living.
I consciously chose to write this down and share my adventure because friends and family around me were worried about this session. I can assure you this session was something to remember forever.
I also want to thank my wife for giving me this and for letting me take a break from my family to throw myself into this adventure. There is always the fear of the unknown, but I am convinced that this unknown will give me many more instructive adventures. And that’s the best thing there is, being able to learn something new every day.
 
“We’re all energetic (spiritual) beings who have a human experience.”
May the Tao be with you!

My boyfriend had asked me to do a trip therapy with Marcel. And I thought this was going to be a standard colorful Saturday afternoon and in the evening I am chatting on a birthday. From the moment Marcel stepped in and conjured up his homemade hot truffle cocktail. I knew, this is not going to be a normal truffle session.
I’m a fairly sensitive type and had asked for a mild dose, which I hadn’t even drunk. Because within 12 minutes I was tripping so hard that I had to look for a dark corner. But after an hour I sank into it so deliciously that my whole house looked like a light show festival. I saw the most beautiful colors around me and my whole house started to live.
A few hours later I felt a strong need to talk to Marcel. Suddenly I had a tendency to ask him my life questions and to philosophize about all the invisible frames of life. Marcel was able to guide me through these phases and we also had a lot of laughs together. I enjoyed his good preparation and the smells I suddenly couldn’t smell anymore. Because I had forgotten that we actually agreed with all of them that we gave each scent a name.
After the session my brain felt so overtired that I had to sleep for an hour. Then I had to get ready again, because of course I still had a birthday where I had to go. I had experienced so much during my truffle session. That during conversations on that birthday people felt so good that I knew what they were feeling and were going to say. I also saw physical blockages in them that I didn’t see before. I had discussed this later with Marcel and according to him I had become more intuitive because of the truffle therapy. I felt relaxed and clear for a few days. And that felt really nice.
I can’t guarantee that you’re going to have such a crazy experience with Marcel. But one thing I know for sure is that it will be an unforgettable event in your life. After such a session, life certainly looks different. And I can’t wait for the next session with Marcel!

Triptherapy… I was careful. Did my research beforehand. Marcel also gave me the necessary information. I had faith in it and took it on.
I found it quite exciting beforehand. But wow! What an experience. I have the necessary knowledge from psychology. In addition, I’ve done a lot of research into softening processes myself. But during the trip all the information comes together.
But the masterly thing is that you already know the things that come out. That the answers are already inside you. It comes out so clearly. And then you’re gonna know it but you’re also gonna feel it… That’s a really big difference. Wow! Wow!
Marcel assisted me during this process. He does this very skilfully. It adapts to what I needed at that moment. He has the necessary knowledge. What made me feel confident in the situation and actually didn’t get anxious and was able to continue my process.
One day later I notice revelation on revelation. The things I knew have suddenly landed. How nice! I’m really curious where this is going to take me!

guess I’ve had a lot of experiences that others have, but it’s intense to experience it myself.
In the beginning I saw beautiful statues, lots of colours and geometric figures, but at one point these statues switched to skulls and nasty little figures. I was relieved that this happened quickly and that I could indeed send it myself. I see this as fear that can be overcome.
The lonely, sad little man I saw caused me a lot of grief. I saw myself sitting down. This too went by and then immediately afterwards I experienced an intense fit of laughter with afterwards tears of happiness. An emotion I never felt before.
Afterwards, a lot of amazement at what was coming at me. Hindu gods, the globe on the painting that became 3 dimensional, man woman element, yin yang.

In the sad painting the colours alternated.

And then on the blue painting I experienced a lot of rest. I saw fish, babies, Santa Claus, religious figures, antiquity, Greek or Romanesque text.

It was a rollercoaster of impressions and emotions.
What I’m getting out of it for myself:
-everything will be all right
-focus on the positive
-you can steer by yourself
-there’s more to this world than what you see.
-Scared of
-it’s what it is, let what needs to be done happen.
-I still feel
-difference between knowing and feeling
-Art is important
-feeling that a burden has been lifted from me, I’m experiencing peaceful rest
-At the moment there are almost no thoughts, and if they do come, they’re gone immediately. (Should be the effect of meditation) I am happy to feel it and hope I can hold on to it.
Maybe all clichés, but I’ve felt them
I’m so glad I made this trip!
Thanks, and if I want to experience this again, I know where to go.
 
Kind regards,
Ann

Here is what I can say about Marcel in his job:
Prior to the trip:
Very responsive, open to adapt to wishes, well organized, makes sure that everything is prepared and that no open questions remain.
During the trip:
Very professional and experienced, absolutely ethical behaviour, emphatic and caring, acts not as a mere tripsitter but as a coach/guide during the trip.
After the trip:
Still caring, not rushing out quickly to another trip, instead taking time to say goodbye, makes sure that everything is ok with you. Checks also they day after if everything is ok, just wonderful.
Here my trip experience:
I’m a middle-aged women w/o any prior trip experience with mind altering substances. So here is why I wanted to do it: I studied with my Buddhist Group during the last year the first complete translation of the Bardo Thodhol (tibetan book of the death). It includes one of the most detailed and compelling descriptions of the after-death state. Just fantastic…but I thought I can only exerience what is described there during my own dying. But no, there is another book which I just found and read recently: Timothy Leary, The Psychedelic Experience: A Manual Based on the Tibetan Book of the Dead, in which he describes how to use the psychedelic mind-expansion for an after death experience according to the stages described in the Bardo Thodol.
So far so good…I decided to do it with Marcel, entered the room with my meditation cushion and blanket because I assumed from Leary’s book that you do this in meditation posture. Marcel advised it would be better to the trip lying on a bed and fortunately I listend to him; I can’t imagine how one can do this in a sitting manner… Then…the trip level…of course Leary’s experience is with a level 5 trip, so I asked Marcel to prepare for a level 5 trip despite it is not recommended for unexperienced trippers. Marcel proposed to split the portion in two, so that I start with a lower level portion and if he and I think I can handle a higher level then to drink the second half of the portion within the first 30min. Actually I got a little afraid and asked him beforehand to reduce the level to 3-4, still with splitting the portion. And luckily we did it like that, because when the level 2-3 kicked in, I had a lot of nausea and if I had taken the remaining portion, I’m sure I would have had to vomit. The nausea stayed almost during the whole trip and was quite well handeld by Marcel with aromatherapy and reminding me to relax. I remember Marcel asked me as agreed questions to check my trip level, so that I could have taken the second half, but I really found it hard to articulate, words just slipped away so I just said no to everyhing he asked. The peak was quite intense and dense, I almost can’t recall it, it had something to do that I waited for the Dharmakaya clear light to appear, but it didn’t, at least not the way I had imagined/expected it would be. After realizing that I said to me: ok, not as expected, but neverthess I can enjoy it, it is all my own mind and then I relaxed even further, stopped with my wish to controll everything, even a psychedelic trip, and kind of enjoyed the colorful spirals, dragons, geometric forms., etc. Interestingly I had no emotions during the trip, it was like a peaceful, but very colorful state…I did not want to listen to any music, instead we (poor Marcel :)) listened to my “guided meditation playlist” over and over again…
After the trip Marcel was so kind to leave healthy nuts and berries behind and he clearly pointed out the necessity to restore the body’s nutrition level after a trip. I had then his nuts and berries cocktail 2h after he left and it was delicious. The morning after (I did the trip in a hotel room near Amsterdam) I started crying and crying and crying without any reason. When Marcel was checking on me then the evening after I mentioned this to him and he assumed that this might have been caused by trauma release. I guess he is right, I don’t know which trauma, but my heart feels more open. Would do it and might do it again in future with Marcel!

The help you get beforehand with trip therapy is more and more personal than I am used to. I have seen enough psychologists and this works so much better! Before the trip I already noticed that food and supplements make me feel so much better than I expected. During the trip it seemed like a bomb. It has been a couple of weeks now. I still feel less insecure because I also take good care of myself. During the trip I saw why I made bad choices because of old pain and patterns.
Life is so much better now than it was before. I can’t thank Marcel enough for this. You showed me what I needed to see. Thank you so much!

A friend told me about her trip with psilocybin and I saw that in a few days she seemed in a much better place than she had been lately. Being myself in a difficult situation, and dealing constantly with anxiety and depression, I ended up researching more on the topic and was impressed to read about the actual results with psilocybin in the treatment of depression and anxiety so I decided to give it a go. I am so grateful I did, because my outlook on life and my general feeling improved so much through it. The anxiety I always felt, like a pressure in my chest and that sort of ‘fight or flight’ mode I was constantly in are gone and I can say I wake up feeling good every day. Of course it hasn’t made my problems disappear, but honestly, the abysmal decrease of my anxiety and deep sadness have made those problems much narrower than they felt, and I feel confident I will be much better, no matter what happens next. Marcel was really great, making sure I felt comfortable and helping in asking certain questions and trying to guide me through it when I wasn’t focused enough, as well as leaving me with good questions to ask myself each day. I’d really recommend this to anyone who’s thinking about it, as it has made a huge difference for me. If I had to resume the experience into one word, it would be ‘healing’, as I really felt like this healed me from the inside out, and it was also so magical and beautiful. So really, thank you, Marcel.

As a traveler with a little more experience, I can say that I recommend Marcel !
He offers a safe environment and has enough knowledge to be able to advise in many areas.
With him you can grow as a human being by being inspired in several ways, when it comes to sports, nutrition or making a spiritual trip, Marcel can help you with that.
I am a pleasant experience richer and strengthened in my path.
Do as I say and be enriched!
Namaste .

I tripped twice with the help of Marcel against my chronic depression. Because I really didn’t know anything about truffles and had no experience with them I liked it very much to notice how much Marcel clearly knows about them. He gave me a lot of tips about all the supplements that make the experience optimal. Before tripping he informed me well about everything and during the trip he listened very well to what I said. He also had insights and ideas that no counselor has ever had (while I have been in counseling for quite a long time). For example, I indicated that I generally wanted to think more about the possible physical causes of my chronic fatigue and depression, which he listened to very well and he came up with several ideas right away. In short, he listens very well, he knows a lot about it and he made two very special trips!

I was in Amsterdam for weekend and I decided to seize the opportunity to check out what actually is a guided trip.
My previous experience with mushrooms was party/fun oriented but I had a deep feeling that there’s so much more that psychedelics can offer.
I’ve contacted Triptherapy through WhatsApp and very quickly made some arrangements. All the questions I’ve asked were answered thoroughly and faster than I knew I was marching with a stranger to take drugs in a nature setting .
I was guided by Marcel on a mild 2-3 level trip and my intention for that trip was to spend time with myself and be there just for me.
Beginning of my trip was very visual and my main focus was on a beautiful, psychedelic tree I was laying under. It was really an amazing tree! But Marcel was able to help me to direct my thoughts inwards.
I felt safe and tasks care of. I felt like a little paper boat on calm waters and the trip sitter was making gentle waves next to me to guide me to my realisations.
I was filled with gratefulness, love, relief and forgiveness for my own doings and those feelings are still present with me.

The only thing I would change is better preparation from my side – I am more than sure that if I’d focused on meditation, setting specific intention and diet/supplements my experience would be even deeper.

I would like to thank Triptherapie and Marcel for new perspectives, drinkable honey mushroom tea, your wisdom and the cucumber trick for nausea.

I am certain that this experience was a first step towards my new, more aware and significant life and I highly recommend everyone to try mushrooms with Marcel .

Can’t wait for next trip or a retreat!

I had a very nice trip with Marcel. I wanted to find out what a trip could do for me, after I ran into some tricky pieces in my life I couldn’t really find the answer to. My fears often stopped me from following my feelings. Since I believe that all the answers are inside, I wanted to experience that for myself. After consulting with Marcel about which trip level could help, I had a wonderful and enlightening experience. Because my head, ego and fears dissolved, I ended up fully in my own feelings. Because of this I had many realizations and breakthroughs, even many days after the trip. My brain has really had a reset and a lot of space has been created. Because of the good guidance of Marcel I had a super experience! Thank you, it has made my life a lot lighter and I feel more relaxed and happy 🙂

Actually, my mother had been doing no so good for 20 years. Years of psychotherapy (and medication) had only helped her minimally with her childhood trauma.
Every now and then things got a little better. Then she was full of energy and ‘cleared up’, but in recent years the periods of low energy, depression and ‘dark periods’ have been coming together more often, more intensely and darker.
In December 2023 she reached a very dark low and decided (partly because of my own experiences with trips) to contact Triptherapie. A friend of mine had already had positive experiences with Marcel as a Tripsitter.
Fortunately, she was quickly able to go for a session in the loft in Schiedam. We had chosen this so that we would still have a lot of time to talk about the insights. That went well. The professional guidance of Janneke in the preliminary stage and Marcel during the trip itself were also very good. The session itself was intense and emotional, as could be expected. That was more than half a year ago now.
My mother now gives her life a ‘big 8’. That’s fantastic. And that after 1 psilocybin session! A complete turnaround.
She also previously suffered from a form of OCD. Everything in her life had a ‘rule-set’: a way in which something had to be done and deviating from that was very difficult for her. That took a lot of mental energy. The session also ensured that ‘it’s not all that important’, which is super nice for her.
Thanks Marcel and Janneke!

I had a truffle therapy at home with Marcel in December, I really liked it. I had beautiful visualizations of my surroundings, and when I closed my eyes I was in a completely different world again.
The aromatherapy and perfect music made it a very nice trip and Marcel sat there quietly and asked some questions every now and then.
I suffered from depressive complaints and they have become so much less, I started to exercise more, eat healthier and more conscious, meditate and am much more active.
I’m definitely going to do another truffle therapy, although I’m also curious about that other option .
it’s changed my life, I can’t tell enough people. They always ask me if I have shares

I tripped with Marcel twice in the past couple of weeks. I have been suffering from clinical depression and anxiety for the past 6 years, ever since I got bullied by some male coworkers. So, I had serious paranoia about using psychedelics as well as tripping with a strange male trip sitter in Amsterdam (as I had gotten really shocked and afraid because of my previous experiences with strange men while abroad). Marcel got in touch as soon I texted him inquiring about trip sitting for my depression, and kept in touch with suggestions about supplements to use before tripping etc. We had tentatively figured out a date for the trip as well, and he had been super patient with my fears and concerns about doing it. Except for one thing – even though he tried to encourage me, the day before my trip, I had a major panic attack about what I was doing, cancelled my appointment and simply left town. He still didn’t get mad at me, or annoyed, or complain that I wasted a day for him or that he might have lost money etc. He followed up within a week or more to ask how I was doing. I was still contemplating what to do (as my depression has really been long running at this point) and then decided again to try it, preparing for all the things that could go wrong in my head.
Anyway, this time I made an appointment with him again – and managed to keep it in spite of my panic. He ended up being a super sweet and patient guy, and tried to settle my fears. I felt totally safe and comfortable, and it ended up being a really fun trip and a great first experience. His tea was pretty good and just relaxed me ( which is pretty much what I needed ). My anxiety has dropped by over half ever since that trip, so seems like truffles definitely helps with calming you down. My depression symptoms are still around, which is why I decided to do a second trip within a week, but for whatever reason that trip didn’t go as well for me. Marcel had asked me to wait for a couple weeks himself. I also didn’t use his tea for this one – just the truffles. I had spoken to other trip sitters, who said the gap didn’t matter so much , because of which I proceeded. I have just learned that many users can have a dip in mood for a week or two after the use of psychedelics, and I have a feeling that must have been the case with me as well. So I think I should have waited until I was in a better frame of mind. My only issue was that I wish he had been a bit more aware that some people might feel a dip in mood after a trip and there are supplements that can help with that. But I think perhaps no one trips as close together, so maybe it doesn’t affect others as much. However, he respected my boundaries even while I was having not as good a trip. His emergency sugar drink helped end it sooner. He also drove me back home so I wasn’t wandering around in public transport feeling not so great. I felt totally safe during my trips and knew he could be relied upon.
So, I pretty much chose to trip with Marcel because he was patient, understanding and a caring and trustworthy person – he handled the situation well even when I went off the rails a bit. That really reassured me and mattered a lot to me. Plus, I truly appreciated that he didn’t judge me for my paranoia and understood my hesitations about being around a male trip sitter after my traumatic experience. He tried to, in his own way I think, make me a bit more comfortable around strange men again and I do appreciate that. I only think that he should also focus on post-trip supplements as much as pre-trip ones ! But I would trip with him again, and definitely use his tea over just plain truffles !