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My inner journey
On September 20, 2019 I was ready for my third psychedelics trip. I had been given the extraordinary opportunity to be one of the first to do this session in a very special, idyllic location of our sympathetic host Arjan and of course under the guidance of everyone’s friend Stendert. The whole thing took place in a self-built wooden cabin, which was perfect for a two-person session with my good friend Steven. In front of the cabin was the… Circle of Power that made it even more special. It was demarcated with rocks and natural stones. In the center was a beautiful-looking rock crystal. After a nice tour on the domain of Arjan, and admiring his authentic Mongolian tent, and chatting together, it was time for the trip. We first took our delicious MAO inhibitor with the taste of ambrosia and raspberries (NOT!), The drink was disgustingly bitter and I imagine licking a cactus would feel even more pleasant. But well, it is worth it! We lay down in our sleeping bags while Arjan lit the fireplace (cozy!). I soon went into a trance that made me feel very comfortable and happy, although I didn’t go very deep. It felt more like a lucid dream. After 2 hours Stendert woke me because it was time for the second shot of the Gods drink. We sat down in the Circle of Power and told each other’s experiences. As I looked at the crystal in the center of the circle, I saw it change from clear to milky white, pulsating like a beating heart, but much slower. I said to Steven what I saw, and I expected a burst of laughter, and I saw he was ready for that, until he looked and shouted in amazement that he saw it too. We asked Arjan and Stendert if they saw it, but they answered coolly that they had not been drinking the Gods drink. According to them, it was a sign that we should lie down again. Immediately I felt how the physical purification was started in the form of abdominal cramps. I struggled to squeeze my butt because I felt I was leaving every moment, and sure enough, with the speed of a rabbit on steroids, I was sucked into the other dimension. To the music of karunesh, more specifically the song Moola Mantra, my journey started. I was drawn into a world very similar to ancient Egypt we know from movies and documentaries. Only what happened was a completely different story. In this dimension, worlds were created to the tones of music and Mantras. More specifically, the Mantras that originated in that song. I also started singing along as if it was my job, and it went completely by itself. I followed the flow of the other Gods present and built entire landscapes. It was then that I realized that I myself was the creator of my own world, that I can create anything I want. That I actually discovered God in myself and that there were no limits for me anymore. It was terribly scary to be pulled out of my body and into a dimension that I didn’t know I would ever return to, and the idea of ​​never seeing my family and friends again made me very sad. Yet I realized deep down that I was receiving a lesson here that would drastically change my life. Also the realization that everything consists of sound and tones did not surprise me. It seemed as if I had always known that it was woven into my DNA. When I started to return from that dimension a bit and I floated between two worlds, I saw my guide Stendert standing next to me. He just said with his compassionate smile: “Now go inside yourself and take a good look around at the beautiful things you can see there.” The moment he said that I disappeared in my body. What I saw made me so much pleasure and happiness: only love and purity, worlds in worlds, infinity. The realization that I am God of my own body, my inner God. Of course, many more things happened that I can bring to my mind again while I played the matching music again, but they are guaranteed to surface more clearly later. I did not sleep after the trip yet and try to write down everything I remember, but I now know from experience that after days, weeks and even months, memories of the trip can still arise. That was the trip itself in a nutshell, but the effect I feel afterwards is almost impossible to describe. A feeling of intense happiness, unconditional love for everything and everyone, a serenity that I have not felt for a long time, and especially inner peace and tranquility. Apparently it is three times right, and I have now had the most beautiful and life-changing psychedelical experience. A must for anyone who wants to discover himself and his inner world and wants to continue with an awareness of an eternally existent soul. Ending with a bit of surreptitious advertising: let Stendert and Arjan guide you, because they make it a great experience . Read more “My inner journey”
Truffle trip level 3-4
I had a truffle therapy at home with Marcel in December, I really liked it. I had beautiful visualizations of my surroundings, and when I closed my eyes I was in a completely different world again. The aromatherapy and perfect music made it a very nice trip and Marcel sat there quietly and asked some questions every now and then. I suffered from depressive complaints and they have become so much less, I started to exercise more, eat healthier and… more conscious, meditate and am much more active. I’m definitely going to do another truffle therapy, although I’m also curious about that other option . it’s changed my life, I can’t tell enough people. They always ask me if I have shares Read more “Truffle trip level 3-4”
Psychedelic journey in the Psychedelic Loft in Schiedam
guess I’ve had a lot of experiences that others have, but it’s intense to experience it myself. In the beginning I saw beautiful statues, lots of colours and geometric figures, but at one point these statues switched to skulls and nasty little figures. I was relieved that this happened quickly and that I could indeed send it myself. I see this as fear that can be overcome. The lonely, sad little man I saw caused me a lot of grief.… I saw myself sitting down. This too went by and then immediately afterwards I experienced an intense fit of laughter with afterwards tears of happiness. An emotion I never felt before. Afterwards, a lot of amazement at what was coming at me. Hindu gods, the globe on the painting that became 3 dimensional, man woman element, yin yang. 
In the sad painting the colours alternated. 
And then on the blue painting I experienced a lot of rest. I saw fish, babies, Santa Claus, religious figures, antiquity, Greek or Romanesque text. 
It was a rollercoaster of impressions and emotions. What I’m getting out of it for myself: -everything will be all right -focus on the positive -you can steer by yourself -there’s more to this world than what you see. -Scared of -it’s what it is, let what needs to be done happen. -I still feel -difference between knowing and feeling -Art is important -feeling that a burden has been lifted from me, I’m experiencing peaceful rest -At the moment there are almost no thoughts, and if they do come, they’re gone immediately. (Should be the effect of meditation) I am happy to feel it and hope I can hold on to it. Maybe all clichés, but I’ve felt them I’m so glad I made this trip! Thanks, and if I want to experience this again, I know where to go. Kind regards, Ann Read more “Psychedelic journey in the Psychedelic Loft in Schiedam”
Tree trip with Marcel
I was in Amsterdam for weekend and I decided to seize the opportunity to check out what actually is a guided trip. My previous experience with mushrooms was party/fun oriented but I had a deep feeling that there’s so much more that psychedelics can offer. I’ve contacted Triptherapy through WhatsApp and very quickly made some arrangements. All the questions I’ve asked were answered thoroughly and faster than I knew I was marching with a stranger to take drugs in a… nature setting . I was guided by Marcel on a mild 2-3 level trip and my intention for that trip was to spend time with myself and be there just for me. Beginning of my trip was very visual and my main focus was on a beautiful, psychedelic tree I was laying under. It was really an amazing tree! But Marcel was able to help me to direct my thoughts inwards. I felt safe and tasks care of. I felt like a little paper boat on calm waters and the trip sitter was making gentle waves next to me to guide me to my realisations. I was filled with gratefulness, love, relief and forgiveness for my own doings and those feelings are still present with me. The only thing I would change is better preparation from my side – I am more than sure that if I’d focused on meditation, setting specific intention and diet/supplements my experience would be even deeper. I would like to thank Triptherapie and Marcel for new perspectives, drinkable honey mushroom tea, your wisdom and the cucumber trick for nausea. I am certain that this experience was a first step towards my new, more aware and significant life and I highly recommend everyone to try mushrooms with Marcel . Can’t wait for next trip or a retreat! Read more “Tree trip with Marcel”
Knowledge
I just wanted to say that I’m so grateful that I met you, and grateful for all the knowledge you gave me, Sten!
My psychedelic psilocybin trip in Haarlem
Introduction With all thanks to Marcel. He has prepared me in an excellent way for – and guided me during the trip. Throughout my life, a single question has been and still is central; who am I really and what is consciousness? I have always felt that these so-called unanswerable questions can only give a satisfactory response if you dare to equate the human imagination at least with the superpowerful outer sense. With paintings, poems and dramatic philosophical texts… I have tried (and continue to try) to express the imagination of deep cosmic connectedness. In addition, a youth trauma plays a role as a means of pressure to depict (and experience) a deeper origin of consciousness and reality. Questions of meaning such as traumatic experiences have always made me curious about means of expanding my consciousness. The use of weed also helps me to better express my imaginations. The trip I just take a throw and say that 80 percent of the trip can’t be grasped. That leaves me 20 percent to describe. Immediately after the trip I wrote down a thread of impressions in keywords. My trip experience follows the music playlist of Marcel’s mobile phone, his scent diffusers and his rotating light/color nozzle. Here’s my report in rough terms. Then I make an attempt to formulate what I have learned from it or become wiser. A continuous pulsing of beautifully coloured and undulating form fields that then swell up again and then diminish again. Fields filled with unfathomable figures and signs that continuously divide, merge, separate and then merge again etc. A rhythmic pumping and swirling of liquid velvet textures in brilliantly changing colour streams with orgasmic fountains of scarlet and ultraviolet. These alternating currents contract and ripen open. Then an infinite spine of reptiles emerges from a bottom of rows of teeth that fade away again. I see the dying dragon passing into the face of mercy. What a majesty in a procession of flared colours, a cosmic parade of forms groping for their birth. They yearn to be born. In palaces, princes and princesses are cast in gold and purple and then eaten and swallowed up in the eternal cycle of digestion. I see you womb, mother of healing, mother of primal mating in your sacred confirmation of purple. A short rest in the pulsating fields. Then a new unrest begins. On the big board game satyr and clowns appear – Micky Mouse-like figures with mean grimaces. Then insects crawl into restless crevices and fish and snakes hurry away. The contours of the swaying pink carmine field change into a sharply increasing palette of shades of brown and dark green. Something new is looming. Once again everything is swallowed up by a large monster that then dissolves again and transforms into new formations of gracious shapes. The cycle keeps repeating itself in this way: golden children are transformed into beasts, swallowed and digested etc. Conclusion I interpret the trip I made as an encounter with the history of my own body that is, of course, a body like any living being. Presumably the trip offers the possibility to unlock the oldest part of the brain (the reptile brain). My digestion and spine formed the framework through which evolution unfolded to me filmically (in partial visions). I have witnessed the horrible beast of which I am and am part. But I have experienced in the experience of this trip that this enormous beast (evolution) is at the same time the deepest grace and possibility for further growth. The day after the trip I decided to take a walk through Haarlem. I was not planning to visit Teylersmuseum. Yet I walked there spontaneously. Before I realized it, I stood eye and eye with essentials from the trip: fossils, skeletons, shells etc. I was particularly touched by the so-called ammonite. Unconsciously I draw and paint this form all my life. How happy I am my new ammonite consciousness. A few days after the trip I made a painting (crucifixion 26) in which I incorporated my organic adventure. You can find it on my account on Instagram. Gus Ambrose Edit by triptherapy The artwork belonging to the trip is shown below. By the way, are you curious what other art Gijs Ambrosius makes? Then click on a link of your choice: Website of artist Gijs AmbrosiusInstagram by artist Gijs Ambrosius
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Beautifull and safe place
Manu and Stendert, I am grateful for my second psychedelic experience. You have given us a trusted and safe environment with your sweet care in a beautiful and appropriate environment in the forest house. Love, Danielle
2 x Truffle ceremony with Marcel as a depression treatment and against my anxiety
I tripped with Marcel twice in the past couple of weeks. I have been suffering from clinical depression and anxiety for the past 6 years, ever since I got bullied by some male coworkers. So, I had serious paranoia about using psychedelics as well as tripping with a strange male trip sitter in Amsterdam (as I had gotten really shocked and afraid because of my previous experiences with strange men while abroad). Marcel got in touch as soon I texted… him inquiring about trip sitting for my depression, and kept in touch with suggestions about supplements to use before tripping etc. We had tentatively figured out a date for the trip as well, and he had been super patient with my fears and concerns about doing it. Except for one thing – even though he tried to encourage me, the day before my trip, I had a major panic attack about what I was doing, cancelled my appointment and simply left town. He still didn’t get mad at me, or annoyed, or complain that I wasted a day for him or that he might have lost money etc. He followed up within a week or more to ask how I was doing. I was still contemplating what to do (as my depression has really been long running at this point) and then decided again to try it, preparing for all the things that could go wrong in my head. Anyway, this time I made an appointment with him again – and managed to keep it in spite of my panic. He ended up being a super sweet and patient guy, and tried to settle my fears. I felt totally safe and comfortable, and it ended up being a really fun trip and a great first experience. His tea was pretty good and just relaxed me ( which is pretty much what I needed ). My anxiety has dropped by over half ever since that trip, so seems like truffles definitely helps with calming you down. My depression symptoms are still around, which is why I decided to do a second trip within a week, but for whatever reason that trip didn’t go as well for me. Marcel had asked me to wait for a couple weeks himself. I also didn’t use his tea for this one – just the truffles. I had spoken to other trip sitters, who said the gap didn’t matter so much , because of which I proceeded. I have just learned that many users can have a dip in mood for a week or two after the use of psychedelics, and I have a feeling that must have been the case with me as well. So I think I should have waited until I was in a better frame of mind. My only issue was that I wish he had been a bit more aware that some people might feel a dip in mood after a trip and there are supplements that can help with that. But I think perhaps no one trips as close together, so maybe it doesn’t affect others as much. However, he respected my boundaries even while I was having not as good a trip. His emergency sugar drink helped end it sooner. He also drove me back home so I wasn’t wandering around in public transport feeling not so great. I felt totally safe during my trips and knew he could be relied upon. So, I pretty much chose to trip with Marcel because he was patient, understanding and a caring and trustworthy person – he handled the situation well even when I went off the rails a bit. That really reassured me and mattered a lot to me. Plus, I truly appreciated that he didn’t judge me for my paranoia and understood my hesitations about being around a male trip sitter after my traumatic experience. He tried to, in his own way I think, make me a bit more comfortable around strange men again and I do appreciate that. I only think that he should also focus on post-trip supplements as much as pre-trip ones ! But I would trip with him again, and definitely use his tea over just plain truffles ! Read more “2 x Truffle ceremony with Marcel as a depression treatment and against my anxiety”
Amazing experience
What an amazing experience it was. I’m still processing it. Partly because of your good care, everything was taken care of down to the last detail and in its place. Just great!
Re-born
Do you want to know what it’s like to put your old life behind you and move on as a reborn human being? This happened to me after having a special cocktail of Marcel. Really, believe it or not, but I figuratively died during my trip and woke up as a new person. From now on I leave all my insecurities behind me because I value my life so much more. People wouldn’t it be a shame if you let… your life suffer through insecurity and never reached your potential in this short life we have here? I realize this now so well wow literally wow what feels this good a new beginning, reborn. I don’t let myself be guided by what people think of me anymore and I say everything I think of something, or not… and people I tell you magical things are going to happen, you start creating your reality! Marcel knows what we need people really trust him and you’ll see. Love to you all and good luck with your journey I hope everyone will find what they need, just as I am experiencing now I grant everyone. Open your eyes and take the next step towards your own reality, love to all Read more “Re-born”
Face the fears
I had a very nice trip with Marcel. I wanted to find out what a trip could do for me, after I ran into some tricky pieces in my life I couldn’t really find the answer to. My fears often stopped me from following my feelings. Since I believe that all the answers are inside, I wanted to experience that for myself. After consulting with Marcel about which trip level could help, I had a wonderful and enlightening experience. Because… my head, ego and fears dissolved, I ended up fully in my own feelings. Because of this I had many realizations and breakthroughs, even many days after the trip. My brain has really had a reset and a lot of space has been created. Because of the good guidance of Marcel I had a super experience! Thank you, it has made my life a lot lighter and I feel more relaxed and happy 🙂 Read more “Face the fears”
Trip similar to the Tibetan book of the dead planned, but became differently
Here is what I can say about Marcel in his job: Prior to the trip: Very responsive, open to adapt to wishes, well organized, makes sure that everything is prepared and that no open questions remain. During the trip: Very professional and experienced, absolutely ethical behaviour, emphatic and caring, acts not as a mere tripsitter but as a coach/guide during the trip. After the trip: Still caring, not rushing out quickly to another trip, instead taking time to say goodbye,… makes sure that everything is ok with you. Checks also they day after if everything is ok, just wonderful. Here my trip experience: I’m a middle-aged women w/o any prior trip experience with mind altering substances. So here is why I wanted to do it: I studied with my Buddhist Group during the last year the first complete translation of the Bardo Thodhol (tibetan book of the death). It includes one of the most detailed and compelling descriptions of the after-death state. Just fantastic…but I thought I can only exerience what is described there during my own dying. But no, there is another book which I just found and read recently: Timothy Leary, The Psychedelic Experience: A Manual Based on the Tibetan Book of the Dead, in which he describes how to use the psychedelic mind-expansion for an after death experience according to the stages described in the Bardo Thodol. So far so good…I decided to do it with Marcel, entered the room with my meditation cushion and blanket because I assumed from Leary’s book that you do this in meditation posture. Marcel advised it would be better to the trip lying on a bed and fortunately I listend to him; I can’t imagine how one can do this in a sitting manner… Then…the trip level…of course Leary’s experience is with a level 5 trip, so I asked Marcel to prepare for a level 5 trip despite it is not recommended for unexperienced trippers. Marcel proposed to split the portion in two, so that I start with a lower level portion and if he and I think I can handle a higher level then to drink the second half of the portion within the first 30min. Actually I got a little afraid and asked him beforehand to reduce the level to 3-4, still with splitting the portion. And luckily we did it like that, because when the level 2-3 kicked in, I had a lot of nausea and if I had taken the remaining portion, I’m sure I would have had to vomit. The nausea stayed almost during the whole trip and was quite well handeld by Marcel with aromatherapy and reminding me to relax. I remember Marcel asked me as agreed questions to check my trip level, so that I could have taken the second half, but I really found it hard to articulate, words just slipped away so I just said no to everyhing he asked. The peak was quite intense and dense, I almost can’t recall it, it had something to do that I waited for the Dharmakaya clear light to appear, but it didn’t, at least not the way I had imagined/expected it would be. After realizing that I said to me: ok, not as expected, but neverthess I can enjoy it, it is all my own mind and then I relaxed even further, stopped with my wish to controll everything, even a psychedelic trip, and kind of enjoyed the colorful spirals, dragons, geometric forms., etc. Interestingly I had no emotions during the trip, it was like a peaceful, but very colorful state…I did not want to listen to any music, instead we (poor Marcel :)) listened to my “guided meditation playlist” over and over again… After the trip Marcel was so kind to leave healthy nuts and berries behind and he clearly pointed out the necessity to restore the body’s nutrition level after a trip. I had then his nuts and berries cocktail 2h after he left and it was delicious. The morning after (I did the trip in a hotel room near Amsterdam) I started crying and crying and crying without any reason. When Marcel was checking on me then the evening after I mentioned this to him and he assumed that this might have been caused by trauma release. I guess he is right, I don’t know which trauma, but my heart feels more open. Would do it and might do it again in future with Marcel! Read more “Trip similar to the Tibetan book of the dead planned, but became differently”
Tripping against depression
I tripped twice with the help of Marcel against my chronic depression. Because I really didn’t know anything about truffles and had no experience with them I liked it very much to notice how much Marcel clearly knows about them. He gave me a lot of tips about all the supplements that make the experience optimal. Before tripping he informed me well about everything and during the trip he listened very well to what I said. He also had insights… and ideas that no counselor has ever had (while I have been in counseling for quite a long time). For example, I indicated that I generally wanted to think more about the possible physical causes of my chronic fatigue and depression, which he listened to very well and he came up with several ideas right away. In short, he listens very well, he knows a lot about it and he made two very special trips! Read more “Tripping against depression”
Triptherapy… mission succeeded with coach Marcel
Triptherapy… I was careful. Did my research beforehand. Marcel also gave me the necessary information. I had faith in it and took it on. I found it quite exciting beforehand. But wow! What an experience. I have the necessary knowledge from psychology. In addition, I’ve done a lot of research into softening processes myself. But during the trip all the information comes together. But the masterly thing is that you already know the things that come out. That the answers… are already inside you. It comes out so clearly. And then you’re gonna know it but you’re also gonna feel it… That’s a really big difference. Wow! Wow! Marcel assisted me during this process. He does this very skilfully. It adapts to what I needed at that moment. He has the necessary knowledge. What made me feel confident in the situation and actually didn’t get anxious and was able to continue my process. One day later I notice revelation on revelation. The things I knew have suddenly landed. How nice! I’m really curious where this is going to take me! Read more “Triptherapy… mission succeeded with coach Marcel”
A journey to my subconscious
I had just checked into my studio that I had booked through Booking when Marcel rang the doorbell. A few weeks earlier, when I had finished my last project, I had booked a truffle ceremony online and today was the day that this place was going to take place. I wanted to listen more to my subconscious and see if I could find some career advice there. After all, I had just turned 40 and decided this was a great… time to learn something about myself and my future. Marcel introduced himself and briefly explained what was about to happen. He asked how I felt and went over the answers I had filled in online in preparation for this day. I asked how ‘legal’ this was, especially for when things would go wrong. He said he had been doing this for 5 years and it was perfectly legal. In the Netherlands you are allowed to use all kinds of drugs, only you are not allowed to sell or own them all. Magic truffles can be sold, however, and this was what I was here for. Moreover, nothing had ever happened during the 5 years that he practiced this profession. That reassured me because I had to admit that I was a bit nervous after all. I asked him if I couldn’t get a higher dose because there are different levels. I wanted to silence that damn ego of mine and experience how it would feel not to be my ‘imaginary self’ anymore but my ‘real’ self. Since I had never taken truffles before, he advised against this and we went for the level below which you hallucinate and experience the world in a totally different way but still remain your imaginary self. Marcel had brought a tea with the truffles containing the active ingredient Psilocybin mixed with some herbs, vitamins and extra minerals. It tasted good. We connected his phone to the Bluetooth speaker in the room and chose which style of music I would listen to. He also said that he would be there for me during the session and that if I found him threatening I could ask him to sit down a bit further. While we were doing this I felt it coming up and he made me smell mint. I lay down on my bed. Marcel installed another lamp that generated fluorescent colors that were constantly changing. He was going to fill the room with all kinds of smells during the trip as well because they could arouse certain feelings or images. I closed my eyes and left on my inner journey. The whole session I had a very familiar feeling. I was still myself and was able to control what happened, Marcel had told me that in advance and it turned out to be true. I was in a colorful fluo 3D universe (by the lamp?) when I closed my eyes, where everything was possible. I had the feeling that I was dreaming but still awake. When I opened them or when the music stopped it felt like I was waking up again and again. I consciously kept them sometimes because I didn’t want this to ever stop. I could feel sad/anxious and happy, I could smell like never before. I saw incredible things, things that belong on a canvas, real works of art. I had the feeling that I wanted to know what life on earth meant but that I wasn’t allowed to know and certainly wasn’t allowed to take it with me to the ‘real’ world. In the beginning I was completely in it as if I was experiencing it myself. Later I watched more from a distance what was happening. It was a blissful feeling. Sometimes the music stopped for a moment and Marcel tried to ask me questions about the things I wanted to know during my trip. However, I noticed that I was having trouble getting out of my words and struggling with the earthly things. I wasn’t on earth and now I didn’t want to occupy myself with banal earthly things like a job or my future . At one point I saw my brother and mother crying and felt their grief and tried to take it away. It was as if I could take away their sad energy from a distance. It felt as if I had been here a million times, in this world I experienced with my eyes closed, as if I went there every night but now could remember it a little better. Although during my trip I was already aware that I wouldn’t be able to remember everything or even ‘had to'(?) forget everything. At one point I experienced a very blissful feeling when I said that I was going to draw all this and show it to the people in my real world. And a little later I said to myself that I wasn’t ‘allowed’ to share it anyway. I saw a kind of wolf/indian with 3 or 4 faces in one. It was hard for me to think of my wife and children, they were too earthly. I was not in the earthly world. I couldn’t think of a job either, or was drawing this unearthly world what I had to do? Discover the artist within myself and share it with the earthly world? I could use all my senses and evoke all the feelings I wanted. I felt like everything was okay, everything I did. That I could make my own laws and I didn’t have to participate in that world with all its rules that make no sense and only serve to serve others or make them rich. Time did not exist, it felt as if I had already traveled for days, but when I was early to the real time only 2.5 hours had passed and it also felt as long but in earthly terms (I know !?!?!?) I can hardly describe with words what I experienced because everything is so different than on earth, literally as the first sentence of the Tao describes it so beautifully: “The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao”. Everything I try to describe comes a long way from what I have experienced. Your brain is literally tripping too. During a trip, the Psilocybin stops your default mode network (DMN) in your brain. This part of your brain can think about the past and future, and is therefore responsible for your ego because who are you?; The person you were in the past and what you are going to do in the future, right? Because this part of your brain becomes less active, other parts of your brain communicate with each other, so you experience reality completely differently and new brain connections are made. It has been discovered on brain scans that people who have meditated all their lives can make this DMN part of the brain inactive. How wonderful it must be to be a Buddhist monk I also understand that if you have a depression, you can let go because you feel/see different things, get different perspectives and experience everything differently as a result. I also have more respect for my body, I really feel what I eat now and that it is good/healthy or not. I also wanted to get rid of my sugar addiction because Psilocybin could also cure addictions. I notice that at the moment it is easier to leave the refined sugars for what they are. I now ‘feel’ more with my whole body that it is not healthy for me. I heard Marcel cleaning up and he started talking to me. We discussed what I had been through and he told me some more things he had experienced during his trips. We said goodbye the way we had to, by a firm hug. He advised me not to go outside yet and if I did it anyway pay attention because sometimes you could concentrate too hard on one thing and wouldn’t realize the rest. I also had to let him know later that night how I was doing. Whatever I did, I had a severe headache. I think this was because I hadn’t been lying on my own pillow during the 5 hour session and had gotten a headache more often. Luckily I was allowed to take paracetamol, only these were still in my car. For my safety I decided not to take it. So I was clear and not so off the planet that I didn’t know what I was doing after the session. The hours after the session I still wasn’t ‘back to normal’. I lived a little slower, very consciously and completely in the now. When I ate fruit, I felt the saliva piling up in my mouth, I was aware of everything. The papayas, mangoes, coconut and pineapple tasted delicious, it was as if I ate them for the first time. I could look at my own hands for minutes, I saw that my hands seemed smaller than I had always thought and they were not as strong as they used to be. When I looked in the mirror I saw that I was redder and I saw veins on my forehead (due to a raised blood pressure?). I looked at my mobile phone and experienced the screen differently because the light and the letters behaved ‘differently’. Or had this always been the case and had I never really looked? I could see many more details and concentrate on something for a long time, like a child who gets something new and gets totally absorbed in it. I was more aware of what I heard and smelled. (At the moment, 2 days after the session, it’s still like this but unfortunately it’s a lot less anyway). For example, I heard a wicker rack standing in the room crackling by itself every now and then and I was very aware of the ventilation in the bathroom. I also noticed, for example, that the background behind your WhatsApp messages moves when you move your mobile phone, I had never noticed that before. I could also keep looking at the ‘online’ icon under a person’s name in WhatsApp as if that was the only thing that existed on earth. I didn’t get clear answers during my session but I feel excellent and confident. It really feels like ‘do what you really want to do without caring what others think’. I know it sounds cliché but now you also feel that because you have experienced it differently. I’m also more empathetic and can empathize better with others. I feel more. I see more. I live more in the now. I have more respect for the planet and I feel very connected to the universe. It’s as if you realize that what we humans make of it is just something tiny in this universe. The universe doesn’t need us, so you decide if you want humanity to continue to exist and if we should move to Mars because it’s too hot here. You feel that there is much more than what we are allowed to experience as humans here and that there are totally different physical(?) laws than those we know as humans. Everything is energy and you experience that during a session at first hand. You feel that time is very relative and our life is just a small thing for the universe and actually means nothing, so you have everything under control and above all you don’t have to be afraid. What can happen, only things your own brain tells you. Later, when I looked at some notes I had written down in the past about everything I still wanted to experience and what I still wanted to change about myself, I saw a lot of things that had to do with my ego. It made me laugh a lot. 6 hours after one drink I saw the world differently than before. Who or what do I want to be? I’m just who I am and I just do what I want. I don’t have to worry about what others think of me, and I certainly don’t have to put it down. I have to do things because I like them, not because I’m ‘better’ than before or than others. I do things because I feel them for myself at that moment. Finally If you live in the NOW, you are not making lists, you are doing what you feel good about at that moment. Living in the NOW is very conscious living. I consciously chose to write this down and share my adventure because friends and family around me were worried about this session. I can assure you this session was something to remember forever. I also want to thank my wife for giving me this and for letting me take a break from my family to throw myself into this adventure. There is always the fear of the unknown, but I am convinced that this unknown will give me many more instructive adventures. And that’s the best thing there is, being able to learn something new every day. “We’re all energetic (spiritual) beings who have a human experience.” May the Tao be with you! Read more “A journey to my subconscious”
Happy life!
The help you get beforehand with trip therapy is more and more personal than I am used to. I have seen enough psychologists and this works so much better! Before the trip I already noticed that food and supplements make me feel so much better than I expected. During the trip it seemed like a bomb. It has been a couple of weeks now. I still feel less insecure because I also take good care of myself. During the trip… I saw why I made bad choices because of old pain and patterns. Life is so much better now than it was before. I can’t thank Marcel enough for this. You showed me what I needed to see. Thank you so much! Read more “Happy life!”
Short report about my medium dose truffle ceremony with Marcel
My name is Victor, I have chosen psilocybin therapy for several reasons. The reasons are a bit different and I would like to keep them private but I think you can imagine why you would choose this path. I’ve been reading positive things about psilocybin therapy mainly from studies done in hospitals on depressed patients who are resistant to other treatments. This was not the case for me but I knew I could get things out of it that would… help me with my “problems”. I don’t like to call it more problems after this trip but I can’t find another word to describe it. I contacted Marcel, at first it was pretty scary for me because of course it’s someone you’ve never met and then you have such an intense experience with them. That’s why I chose to bring my partner to the trip so that I would have a confidant with me and I would feel comfortable. This was also the case during the trip, I felt at ease. Everything felt very well prepared before and after the trip, I had the feeling that Marcel knew very well that I was going through and knew how to deal with it. Small things like choosing the right music and the aromatherapy that comes with it had a very big impact for me on how the experience was. I was inside myself during most of the trip, maybe it had to do with the fact that I didn’t really know Marcel or maybe I wanted to record all the information that came to me and therefore I couldn’t say much. In any case this was handled well and at no point during the trip I felt uncomfortable. And every now and then I was addressed with short questions by Marcel who then sent me during the experience and from which I learned the biggest things. I can’t say much about the experience itself, I think it’s different for everyone and difficult to describe, you can look at yourself and others in a different way and accept things better. I also had the feeling that all the emotions that were stuck during the trip found their way out without any kind of pain. Now a few days after the trip I am starting to notice more and more the positive changes that this trip has brought about, I deal with situations differently and just feel much better. Accepting things is much easier and I don’t hold on to negative emotions for as long. Even though these may seem simple changes, they have already had a big impact on these few days, I hope I can hold on to this for as long as possible and build on it. I want to thank Marcel for all this, it’s a unique experience that can be so healing in your life and which unfortunately not many people have experienced today. I hope that those who still doubt or fear this will also find their way to this form of salvation. Read more “Short report about my medium dose truffle ceremony with Marcel”
Review psilocybin ceremony as therapy
Last Saturday I experienced a beautiful psychedelic journey together with Marcel. What was my path here? I have a sensitivity for depression, and in spite of this sensitivity I have been able to achieve a lot, a lot of beautiful things that I haven’t been able to enjoy because of depression. My last episode was based on a gnawing feeling, something didn’t feel right. I started to focus on meaning. But also meaning could not comfort me when my love… for life subconsciously flowed away and the depression increased in strength. I am now past the center of gravity of this episode, where therapy has helped alleviate the symptoms. What helped was the connection with my therapist, insight, and the new coping strategies I learned. But it didn’t completely get to the heart of the problem for me, namely the love of life. Where (psycho)therapy works on the level of ratio, psychedelic therapy works on the level of your soul. With this insight I started looking for something that could help me a step further, and that’s how I ended up with Marcel. I’ve been reading up on psilocybin as a medication for the treatment of depression. Marcel uses a holistic approach, through healthy food, the right supplements and sufficient exercise, the best results are achieved during the trip. And this holistic approach worked well for me, eating healthier food in combination with the supplements already gave me a more vital feeling prior to the trip. During my psychotherapy I never paid attention to this, but it is really effective. The approach of the trip was trip level 5, but in the end it became a trip level 3-4. Every body reacts differently to psilocybin and I have learned that my body needs a slightly higher dose to reach level 5. However, this did not detract from the trip, I have gained some nice insights from the process. It is literally a journey, first it slowly became more and more difficult to formulate thoughts, then it became more and more difficult to come to words and finally I came into contact with my unconscious. The genius is that your subconscious knows where your difficulties and wounds are, what needs attention and where the healing should take place. My subconscious brought me into contact with myself as a very small child, at a time when I was not yet saddled with thoughts, the feeling of having to, condemnation and punishment. As a very small me I was able to experience feelings of sorrow, relief, joy, wonder in a pure form, without words, without thoughts, without judgments. I couldn’t really remember that little me, that feels like life ago. The little me was happy and happy, outside, in nature, on the beach, in the playground, playing with his friends and sister. This little boy loved life, could also be sad, but could also be comforted, his feelings were adaptive and not stuck like in my depressions. This showed me a path that I now understand on a feeling level, a bliss in habituality, more being outside, more playing. A question I have been asking since the trip for the first time in my life: what does the tiny little me feel like? I don’t know exactly yet, but I’m going to pay a lot of attention to this in the time to come! The contact with Marcel before and after the trip was very pleasant. I also found Marcel to be very knowledgeable as a trip coach. I felt safe during the trip, I was extremely vulnerable and this was taken care of by Marcel in soft hands. This unconditional positive approach was pleasant, it gave me the space to really turn inside out. Marcel assisted me when things got difficult for me during the trip and took good care of me. I am glad that we were able to make this trip together, thank you Marcel! Read more “Review psilocybin ceremony as therapy”
Marcel as a safe space tripsitter
Marcel provided a safe space for me to allow myself to explore an inner conflict I have been struggling with regarding my career and life direction. Marcel was very understanding of my need for privacy, but was also readily available to help out when necessary. He also provided me with useful advice regarding nutrition and exercise
Truffle ceremony after ayahuasca
I myself have a lot of experience with various ayahuasca ceremonies and truffle use, but this was very special!
Good prior preparation with the right questions from Marcel ensures that you dig a little deeper into your subconscious.
Marcel has a lot of knowledge about truffle use and human psyche. This complementary with personal attention and empathy results in a unique instructive trip therapy!
Update and more insights after my heroic trip
This is a follow up on my experience a few months ago — This might sound strange — but since my experience the meaningfulness and insight I’ve gained from my heroic does trip experience has actually increased. Not a day has gone by that I haven’t reflected upon this experience… and to say it has affected me in a positive way is a huge understatement. Although even to this day it’s hard to put into words what I experienced. It… was a complete ego death — and I experienced a oneness with the universe that so many mystics, yogis, shamans and religious teachers have talked about for centuries. It has given me incredible insight that before I struggled to understand or shrugged off as crazy. Just this week I re-read some of Ernest Becker and Alan Watts and understood them in a way I never could or never would if I hadn’t experienced my heroic journey. It’s truly been the gift that keeps on giving. This level of insight has been incredible. So incredible that I’m still learning from it daily and so beneficial that things that I shrugged off are coming back to me filled with resonance. I should say that because it was my first trip ever, I’m not sure if you could call it a good trip or a bad trip… because at times it was euphoric and at other times quite terrifying. But the terrifying parts are really the parts that give me the most to reflect upon now. In a way it is terrifying to leave your body and merge with the great ‘Self’ or the ‘universe’ or ‘God’. But it was also exactly what I wanted to experience. On top of everything that I continue to learn in regards to the experience it has taught me that there is SO much we don’t know… and I can’t wait to go down the rabbit hole again to see what other gems I can discover. Read more “Update and more insights after my heroic trip”
My truffle experience with Marcel
My boyfriend had asked me to do a trip therapy with Marcel. And I thought this was going to be a standard colorful Saturday afternoon and in the evening I am chatting on a birthday. From the moment Marcel stepped in and conjured up his homemade hot truffle cocktail. I knew, this is not going to be a normal truffle session. I’m a fairly sensitive type and had asked for a mild dose, which I hadn’t even drunk. Because within… 12 minutes I was tripping so hard that I had to look for a dark corner. But after an hour I sank into it so deliciously that my whole house looked like a light show festival. I saw the most beautiful colors around me and my whole house started to live. A few hours later I felt a strong need to talk to Marcel. Suddenly I had a tendency to ask him my life questions and to philosophize about all the invisible frames of life. Marcel was able to guide me through these phases and we also had a lot of laughs together. I enjoyed his good preparation and the smells I suddenly couldn’t smell anymore. Because I had forgotten that we actually agreed with all of them that we gave each scent a name. After the session my brain felt so overtired that I had to sleep for an hour. Then I had to get ready again, because of course I still had a birthday where I had to go. I had experienced so much during my truffle session. That during conversations on that birthday people felt so good that I knew what they were feeling and were going to say. I also saw physical blockages in them that I didn’t see before. I had discussed this later with Marcel and according to him I had become more intuitive because of the truffle therapy. I felt relaxed and clear for a few days. And that felt really nice. I can’t guarantee that you’re going to have such a crazy experience with Marcel. But one thing I know for sure is that it will be an unforgettable event in your life. After such a session, life certainly looks different. And I can’t wait for the next session with Marcel! Read more “My truffle experience with Marcel”